Re: Re: Update (Or Lack Thereof)

I must admit I blanched when you started off with "Hey Dude". In my dysphoria, I find it belittling. Conversely, I smiled when the ever-belligerent Francois left me a post saying, "Shaddup, bitch, nobody asked ya." This is the immature stuff of transition, of course. I hope to get past it.

Your theory about the hormones in the milk and stuff . . . it's nice, but I don't think it's been going on that long. I remember protesting hormones for milk cows back in 1994 (Or intending to, to be honest. I'm not a very good activist.) I do, however, think something "evolutionary" is going on with the early development. So to speak.

And I just assume ecstacy is bad. Why? Because it's called "Ecstacy". That right there tells me it's bad for ya.

Now, on to the interesting stuff: I got a kick out of your last few questions, because they illustrated quite aptly how fixedly male you are. Such a focus on the penis!

Listen, transsexualism is about a LOT of other things besides genitalia. I think you can work this out for yourself, but . . . it's about societal roles, interpersonal roles, self-expression, image, and . . . a lot of things I don't know how to define.

I have be quick 'cause I've got some food to fix. But look: If all goes well for me, I should be pretty content with my femininity before SRS even happens. It's not even the most important surgery, out of several procedures I could use. Given a million dollars to spend, after electrolysis, I would go for facial feminization surgery -- brow reconstruction/hairline realignment, jaw, nose, tracheal shave. I could get by without the jaw or nose jobs, but that's what I'd do. Hormones don't do much for the face.

Having a vagina doesn't help one be accepted by society as a woman. A sad truth of transsexualism is this: What other people think does matter, and that means looks matter. Being "passable" definitely makes a difference in one's happiness and success.

As for the old "package", what matters most is getting rid of the testicles. They're out to get me, you realize. They want me bony and bald. They've done a lot of damage so far. I may have lost a few battles (that hairline ain't growin' back), but I can still win the war!

If you check some more around that site I mentioned in my last post, you'll find some pictures of surgically-constructed vaginae after the labiaplasty is complete and everything's healed. You tell me if they really look so different from genetic vaginae. You have seen plenty of "pussy" in your life, haven't you . . . Dude?

Take care!

Julie Dude