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Posted by: AwesomeMachine 10/30/2005, 01:36:08 (About author)
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Having been insidiously abused, it took me eight years to unravel the tangled web of deceit which lie between me and reality. the deceit was so thick I had not even a chance of finding my way out without help. I was in total darkness. I was imprisoned in a cell made of deceit. I had worked for years to strengthen the bars of my cell, keeping me safe from the Truth. The Truth is what I feared most, and I developed sophisticated mechanisms to work around it. Having been a suburban, middle class child greatly enhanced my ability to deceive myself. My earthly Father began to imprison me when I was an infant. He is a psychopath who has killed. He condemned me to a prison cell of deceit, sentencing me to death at my own hand. He provided food, shelter, and medical care to keep me alive long enough to carry out his sentence on me. I was born under several curses. Curses give the enemy rights to deceive a child before the age of reason. The age of reason is that time which the true meaning of death is understood. Before this time a child is innocent. It is in this innocence that the psychopath finds his prey. The psychopath preys on innocence, falsely believing he can take it for himself. Trust is the vehicle. Innocence is the target. The psychopath seeks to restore his own innocence by depriving the innocent of their own. This, in reality, is the need to reproduce. Psychopaths reproduce by robbing innocence. Once a person's innocence has been robbed away by a psychopath, they become a psychopath. Their target will be themselves, or others. In the case of my earthly Father, the target was others. In the case of myself, it was myself. The medical profession recognizes psychopathic behavior against one's self as a series of diseases. Psychopathic physical violence against others is not presently classified as disease, although its etiology is the same. There is a series of genes called the DRD series. Mutations on one, or more alleles, in one, or more of these genes; coupled with being victimized by a psychopathic predator, causes a surplus in neuropeptidase; specifically, the neuropeptidase which breaks down the neurotransmitter, dopamine. Neuropeptidases are protein molecules, which catalyze the chemical reaction breaking down neurotransmitters. Neurotransmitters are also protein based, having as precursors amino acids, which are the building blocks of protein. This surplus of neuropeptidase interferes with a series of reactions called the reward cascade. In nonmutated individuals, who have not been victimized by psychopaths, there is a feeling of reward which accompanies appropriate behavior. The genesis of the reward cascade is the release of the endorphin enkephalin. Enkephalin induces release of dopamine, and gamma-amino-butyric-acid (GABA). The GABA inhibits neuronal thresholds to dopamine, thereby preventing the dopamine from doing damage. When the dopamine enters the nerve synapses, it triggers a feeling of reward. Feelings of reward are love, peace, joy, sense of well being, and sense of accomplishment. It is a surprise that these sensations only differ in context. The biology of all of them is identical. In the mutated individual, who has been the victim of a psychopath, a surplus of the neuropeptidase, which breaks down dopamine, is present at all times. Appropriate behavior will not cause the reward cascade to result in feelings of reward. The neuropeptidase enzyme breaks down the dopamine before it has been in the neural junction, or nerve synapse, long enough to trigger this feeling. This etiology is at the root of bipolar disorder, clinical depression, attention deficit disorder, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, and obsessive/compulsive disorder. This group is the first group I will discuss. All of the illnesses mentioned have one thing in common. They are all the result of chronic dopamine shortage. Other neurotransmitters decline over time, in response to lowered available dopamine, to keep a balance. The exact proportions of neurotransmitters the individual winds up with depends on the biology of the individual. Hence the difference in symptoms. The second group I will discuss are the addictions. Addictions are the result of a craving to have the reward cascade completed, and are a deviation which attempt to add available dopamine to the the nervous system. The most effective chemical to add dopamine is ethyl alcohol. Ethyl alcohol ingestion produces more available dopamine per qualitative unit of intoxication than anything else. Alcohol addiction has as its root the same genetic mutations previously stated. Other chemical addictions have similar mechanisms, although the way dopamine is increased varies. All addictions have one thing in common, they all enhance available dopamine, thereby allowing the reward cascade to complete. This allows affected individuals to feel love, joy, peace, sense of well being, and sense of accomplishment. The third group I will discuss is psychopathic criminals. These can be seen as one group. The etiology of their illness is the same as the other two groups, but psychopathic criminals take an approach to do to others as others have done to them. A psychopathic criminal sees innocence. Confident they can get the intended victim to trust them, they use charm to lure the target into a trusting relationship. This is a form of flattery, in which a total stranger seems willing to give so much, and ask nothing in return. For this reason, when flattery is discovered it turns to ashes in the heart. Charm is the ability to induce the reward cascade in others. This gives the other person a feeling of reward. This makes them like the other person. This makes them trust the other person. Psychopaths are very charming, and stay that way in the presence of witnesses. The psychopath lures the victim away from potential witnesses by boosting their ego. This ego boost is easy to discern as flattery by wise individuals, who will not fall victim to the enemy. Unwise individuals will take the bait. What the psychopath now looks for is something about the victim that violates his belief system. Once spotted, this defect becomes the trigger for physical violence. A psychopath lives in a very fragile world. They believe it is not only their right, but their duty to perpetrate violence in order to correct people. Their true aim is to impart their own feelings of worthlessness to the victim, and steal the victims innocence. This is done through inducing fear. If the victim doesn't get scared, the psychopath is foiled. He will move on to another target. If the victim does get scared, a common response to the threat of loss of life or limb, the psychopath proceeds to inflict injury. Fortunately, we have passed laws forbidding this behavior. As long as the violence is physical, or economic in nature, law protects people. A notable exception to this is lying. In the instance of lying, only economic damages can be recovered. If you deceive a person into killing themselves, there is no penalty; at least not on earth. If you are a party to another's suicide, I believe you shall share in the eternal death they suffer as a result of their final impenitent sin. People only kill themselves because someone else deceived them into believing they are worthless. I think there should be laws protecting people from this, but as yet it is perfectly acceptable. This is one of the reasons I cite for a ban on women filing for divorce. This is a form of violence, which is encouraged, and one of the most extreme forms of child abuse. No topic can be properly discussed without consulting the foundation of all wisdom. Scientific evidence gives reliable confirmation for already existing Biblical evidence. Where do these genetic mutations come from? God said, �I will visit the iniquities of the fathers on to the third and fourth generation of those who hate Me.� and �The kingdom of God is like a master who sows good seed in his field. When everyone is sleeping, the enemy sows weeds in the field. The servants see the weeds, and say, �Master, did you not sow good seed. There are weeds coming up.� �I see an enemy's hand in this�, said the master. �Shall we pull up the weeds?�, asked the servant. �Pull up the weeds, and you may take the wheat with them. No, wait until harvest time. Then the harvesters will come. First they will gather up the weeds and bundle them to be burned. Then they can gather the grain and put it into my barn.�� The sin of the fathers is visited on succeeding generations by divine edict. The sower is God. The field is the world. The good seed is human dna, which has not been mutated by the sins of the fathers. The weeds are genetic mutations brought about by generational curses. Mutated man will be gathered up first, and burned. Then unmutated man will have dominion over the earth, and Jesus for a King. I have predicted, to within a couple of hours, when this will occur. I don't believe mankind is meant to know this information. So, I forgot it. But I do remember doing it. Science is a wonderful tool to prove that which has already been told to us. Since I have nothing against God, and nothing against science; thinking them both correct, I have unusual vision, unparalleled by any other. I humble myself before my Creator, for if man can be given what I have been given, God is truly Magnificent, Splendorous, and Awesome. He has made me immortal. I cannot die. My physical death will not kill me. I will go on living. I'll have a new job, and it is all because I was a weed, but now I am wheat. Giving and receiving forgiveness changed me. I received forgiveness from He who has power to forgive sins, Jesus Christ. He is always available, all you have to do is call his name. Confess your sins, and forgive others. Then you can be immortal, too. I have a prayer, which can be used by experienced prayer warriors, to get rid of curses. Email me and I will send you a copy. It has long been known: If you know an entities name, and take on its nature, its power belongs to you. Jesus is the source of all power. If you take on His nature, you will have all power. |
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